Game quitter journal - Day 11

(통계는 주요 이벤트들만. 학교수업시간, 자는 시간, 이동 시간 제외. 클릭 시 커짐)

게임 끊은지 #11일째

오늘 일과 요약( 잘한 일 / 못한 일 )

- 오전 9시부터 오후 4시까지 쭉 수업이 있어서 바빴다. 측량, 수문학, 콘크리트 구조공학을 들었다. 세 과목 전부 시험을 안 봤던 게 너무 후회됐고 다시 기분이 우울해졌다. 난 여기서 뭐하고 있는걸까...

- 오후 4시 ~ 오후 5시 음악 들으면서 콘크리트 구조공학 공부.

- 난 왜 토목과에 온거지? 정말 재미없고 적성에 안 맞는다. 왜 이걸 계속 하고 있는걸까. 다른 할 게 없으니까 한다. 억지로... 감옥에 갇혀있는 것 같네. 씨발

- 공부하기 싫다아ㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏ

- 해도 안 될 것같은 기분이 들 때가 제일 그만두고 싶은 것 같다.

- 씨발 그냥 해 닥치고 해 뭐가 어떻게 되든 그냥 해 씨팔

- 아아... 이 비디오는 정말 동기부여가 잘 되는 비디오인 것 같다.








(Only major events. lecture time, bed time, and time on the road are not included. click the image to see bigger picture)

Day #11

Summary of Day ( Good work / Bad work )

- I was really busy from 9 am til 4 pm. I took survey, hydrology, and concrete engineering. I regret missing those 3 exams this month. I became more depressed. Should I drop out?

- 4 pm ~ 5 pm : Studied concrete engineering listening to music.

- Why am I studying civil engineering? It doesn't interest me. It's not my thing. Why am I keep doing this? Because there's nothing else to do. Feels like I'm locked in a cell. Fuck...

- I WANT TO QUITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

- When I expect horrible result from something, that's the time I want to quit.

- OKAY.... JUST.... SHUT THE FUCK UP AND DO YOUR THING. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT YOUR RESULT. YOU'RE ALREADY FUCKED UP BUT YOU HAVE TO FINISH IT BECAUSE YOU'VE MADE THE CHOICE. SO SHUT YOUR MOUTH AND PICK UP YOUR FUCKING BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(sorry for the insanity.. I'm talking to myself, not you guys)

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